I Believe

A lifetime of putting on a smile

wonder if it's all been worth the while

Doubt creeps inside of me

Wondering if I believe...

Yet words flow like honey off my lips

My heart sinks when I think of it

My mind's a carousel

Spinning round and round...

It all seems impossible, do I believe?

Don't wanna get my hopes up too high

Cause they could collide in an instant

Don't wanna open my eyes

For fear of waking the infant in me.

A childlike faith seems so freeing

Yet a childlike faith doesn't come to me...

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Deep down I know that You are right

Your Word is true, You are my Light

Why do I question You?

My faith is small.

A mustard seed is all that I will need

To move the mount in front of me

Lord give me more of You

Place me right next to You...

Nothing's impossible, when I believe...

Now I wanna get my hopes up so high

That they will collide in an instant

I wanna open my eyes

and wake the passionate infant in me

A childlike faith has come to free me

And a childlike faith came so easy...

Now I believe, I believe, I believe.

These are words from a new song I'm in process of writing. It was inspired by my own life experience. It's easy when you grow up in a Christian home to sorta "assume" the same beliefs and values as your parents-it's all you've known & seen. But there comes a time when the decision is made to make the beliefs, values & morals that were demonstrated to you become your own. And really, that's the moment when I truly knew Jesus. It doesn't mean there won't be times of questioning and wondering, but it was the new beginning to my journey in my relationship with Jesus Christ. Now I believe...